Virginia Harabin: While the young narrator of Fun
Home finds herself resorting to signs and symbols to represent
what she is leaving out of her diary, the adult narrator is able
to give voice to all of those silences. It’s an intriguing
situation in which memories are preserved in spite of their falsification
in the written record. Did the diary serve as a placeholder for
the story you could not yet articulate?
Alison Bechdel: I guess so. I certainly would
not have remembered the details so clearly later if I hadn’t
written it down in the skeletal fashion I did at age thirteen.
VH: The scene in which Bruce becomes so obsessed
with correcting his young daughter’s coloring that he creates “a
crayonic tour de force” is wonderfully poignant. How did
you protect your desire to draw from the competitive atmosphere
in which you grew up? How did you begin to draw cartoons?
AB: The chapter of the book that contains that
scene is about creativity, and one of the things I explore in it
is the way I came to stake off my own creative turf apart from
my parents. I had to find a mode of expression that wouldn’t
directly compete with them. And they cut a pretty wide swath—they
were both poetry fiends, and great readers. My mom was an actress
and played the piano. My dad was this kind of design genius, obsessed
with color. I feel like in a way I became a cartoonist by default.
It was black and white, it wasn’t literary. It was a way
of flying under their aesthetic radar.
VH: Fun
Home contains scenes
in which Bruce is physically violent with his kids. They are powerful,
shocking moments. Nonetheless, the reader comes to share the narrator’s
complex feelings for him. We’re shown, through the experience
of reading, how to forgive him. That’s an extraordinary generosity
on your part as an artist – to allow us to share the perspective
of his victims, but also that of an adult who has worked to understand
him. The book ends on a note of deep appreciation. Is your book
a reckoning with the anxiety of your father’s influence?
AB: Ha! I like that. Yes, absolutely. In a lot
of ways the book is about becoming an artist, because of and in
spite of my father’s simultaneously encouraging and inhibiting
influence.
VH: Some of the images in Fun Home are
unforgettable because of the masterful use of light and dark. How
do you study light in order to achieve its emotional effects in
your drawings?
AB: Um….I’m glad you think this,
but I don’t feel like I’m particularly skilled in the
way I use light in my drawings. There are a couple panels I can
think of where I did something dramatic, like the one where my
dad shows my brothers and me the dead boy. But I wish I were more
facile with light.
The shading technique I used did help to create more emotional
resonance than if I had stuck to crosshatching, like I do in my
comic strip. I worked with ink wash, which enabled me to get a
lot of subtle tones and gradations.
Susan Skirboll: Fun Home is drawn in
shades of blue and black and white. It gives the book a dream-like
quality or even the feel of an old black and white movie. I wonder:
is this what you intended? Did the lack of color reflect your ambivalence
about your father and allow you the emotional distance you needed
to tell your story?
AB: At first I didn’t want to use any color
at all, because of the fact that my father was so controlling about
it, like in that crayon scene. I wanted to show that I could achieve
a very rich effect using only black and white and gray. But then
I had to admit, I could get an even richer effect with color.
So I decided not to let my father control that too, and went ahead
and used that bluish-grayish-green.
VH:In
a work of art such as this, the artist is very powerfully in charge.
You control the images, the story, you chose which details to include
and exclude, you write the captions, and you shape the narrative.
This seems like the prefect form for a highly meticulous sensibility.
Is this your ideal medium?
AB: Yeah. I’m as big a control freak as
my dad any day of the week. And the beauty of cartooning is the
fact that you never have to collaborate with anyone. I’m
the writer, the director, the actors, the set designer, the costumer,
the animal wrangler, the key grip—all me, all the time.
VH: You have spent years creating characters
and shaping experience into narrative, often narrative with a punch
line. Do you constantly look for potential stories? Do you ever
stop?
AB: No. I narrate my own life ceaselessly. It’s
a kind of disorder. Actually, disorder is a funny word. I’m
always trying to wrest order from chaos. That’s what narrative
is for me.
VH: As
your characters have matured, their problems have become weightier.
We’ve been through breakups, beloved
pet loss, loss of the independent bookstore, parental illness and
death, cancer, and troubled kids. Your work has become even more
sharply political in response to the war, the occupation of Iraq,
and the current fearful and repressive climate. Are there any subjects
you won’t touch, or do you find a way to put everything into
the story?
AB: I once thought I’d never have the primary
couple in my strip, Clarice and Toni, break up. I considered them
like Rob and Laura Petrie on the Dick Van Dyke Show. Rob and Laura
would never divorce, and neither would Clarice and Toni. But that
was a long time ago. I feel like the model for my comic strip has
changed, modulated over the years into more Desperate Housewives
than Dick Van Dyke. And I am indeed in the process of breaking
Clarice and Toni up.
VH: In the strip, your characters constantly
debate, fight, experience stasis and frustration, and often hurt
each other. But the representations are never mean. Your work is
satirical, and you make fun of corporate idiocy, but you don’t
mock your own characters. Even the annoying know-it-all Christian
is allowed to develop into a complicated character. Do you have
principles that guide how you chose to represent people?
AB: My only principle is to try and be kind.
Like Kurt Vonnegut says.
SS:It
takes a lot of courage to be as honest as you are in Fun Home.
I wonder if that kind of honesty isn’t sometimes a double-edged
sword: simultaneously liberating and frightening. How do you feel
about putting yourself out there so intimately and honestly?
AB: I feel like I have a kind of intimacy impairment.
I don’t know what compels me to reveal such personal information
to the world at large. But I find it strangely easier than one-on-one
intimacy.
I won’t disavow that it took a kind of courage to write Fun
Home, but it didn’t hurt that I have this intimacy trouble,
this kind of detachment. It wasn’t as brave of me to write
this book as it would have been for someone who had very close family
ties and a more normal sense of loyalty to their family. That’s
the thing about growing up in an emotionally detached household.
You grow up to be detached yourself. I learned my aesthetic distance
from my parents. |